Oh, my word! What a question to see coming off tech hiatus. Is the implication that the one called "me" is separate from my mind, yet  immersed in it?

Safe? Safe for me? I think it is and it isn't. It's my kozmic travel agent, my rishi, my dream cultivator, my nightmare generator, my healer, my lover, my spirit scientist...yet...there are doors to Chapel Perilous which hold in magical things that only reveal themselves in my non-beta states. My mind knows me in ways that I do not. I think it aspires to bring all levels of the bodily/etheric version of the one called me into synchrony with it and I believe that it tries to do it with care so that I don't freak out beyond repair upon knowing the truth of things.

Like the universe, I see my mind as vast and infinite; so, like the universe, it is full of wonders. Sometimes the one called me gets a glimpse of something she is almost evolved enough to know, but not quite (I try to be ready, though). However, this leads to my inability to speak to my mind's safety with certainty. I have the courage to explore it, however. The rewards of such an endeavor are great.

The question makes me think of Q's reponse to an upset Jean-Luc Picard when the Borg were made aware of humans (I paraphrase, of course):

...maybe you should go back home and hind under your bed...it's not safe out here....it's WONDROUS..with delights to satisfy the palate, both subtle and gross...but, it's not for the timid.

The workings of the universe are a mystery to me...but why am I here, Sol?

Being a wick for earth energy rising and antennae for kozmic energy grounding...as they meet in my heart.

Well, you know...I rather liked Gabriel, a film noir, low-budget flick with unknown actors & directors, for a few reasons. 

1. The "Oh my God, this is jacked!" dismay of the characters.

The plot (as you might imagine) was 7 arch angels vs. the 7 deadly sins in a fight for souls in purgatory. Darkness was winning because the "arcs," as they called themselves, were wholly unprepared for level of darkness & emotion felt at the human level (they took human form to do their thing). Per the rules of God & Devil, only one warrior could be sent each cycle and Gabriel was the last arc. If he couldn't defeat Sammael, light would be forever lost to those in purgatory. Not pretty (as wars tend to be): Raphael was mortally wounded (death in purgatory was final) and was living underground. Ithuriel was emotionally defeated and terrified. He decided the only way he could help humans was to run a soup kitchen. Amitiel saved her life by falling (losing her wings) and was tricked-out by Satan. Uriel had a psychotic break and lived in a trailer out in the middle of nowhere. Michael just disappeared and no one knew what happened to him. They were all scared to death except Gabe; so, they buried their angelic energy signatures deeply in their human bodies so they couldn't be found by Sammael.

...and how many of us have felt the need to crush our light in the face of oppressive darkness?

Anyway, the human condition, the reality of choice and being so far from the source of light was just too much...it was emotionally devastating to th angels. It was a lesson in vulnerability, strength and, in the end, truth.

2. The "Oh my God, this is crazy!" plight of the cast & crew.

I was inspired by the interviews with the director & cast. That was better than the movie. It was all so parallel. Just like the arcs & sins, the actors were fully immersed in the entities that they inhabited. Having been cast in a play earlier this year, I can appreciate becoming the character...especially delving within one's personal darkness...not everybody can come back from that (I'm sure playing the joker didn't help Heath Ledger any).

The movie itself was an act of faith: unknown actors, 35-day production schedule, outrageous insurance rates, day-old bread lunches, deferred cast/crew salaries, cast/crew multi-tasking (e.g., Bob, the welder & actor), abandoned-building searching (no $ to build sets), hypothermia, etc. So, these folks really were in this to make a film because that's all there was...manifesting a story that was in them to do...just as the angels & demons had to, ultimately, manifest what was in them to do.

Churning the milky ocean! Yeah, not everybody's cup of tea. But, I was impressed by the creative passion everyone exhibited to make this movie...become. I concur with one of the critics (a rarity), "A for ambition."  http://www.gabrielmovie.com/

Reactiveness (I'm working on it). I don't want to be annoyed that the flash.ocx doesn't work or that a SUV driver reckessly swerved into a lane or that information clerks never have accurate info and don't care. Then, I get annoyed with myself for being annoyed.

Perhaps I just need more valerian root tea.